Amazing, Amazing Love

The privilege of picking up a loved one from the airport brings one of the best feelings in the world.  I didn't really like that we were apart for a few days, but it only made the hour and a half drive to the airport and an hour and a half back home that much sweeter.  You can't get the feeling of returned wholeness if you are never apart.  Nothing feels better than a four day reminder that God is sufficient in my life, and even then, He gifts me with a partner that only enhances this life.

I know.  Gross.  Get a room.

But it's true.  I would have liked to have made the trip to Washington with Ian, but I only gained insight and clarity in my "alone" time.

On our drive home from the airport, Ian made a point that basically took a hold of  my life in the past seven years, smashed it together with my new NY life like a meatloaf, bagged it up and flung it in my face.  Lovingly, of course.

He said that I've known what I wanted to do since I was in high school and somewhere along the way I had decided that it was impossible, that I'd never succeed at it or that the risk was too high.  So as a result, I have never tried and even worse, I've settled.

Ouch! But LORDY ME, so so true!

It made me love him so much more and it made me love Jesus so much more because we need people like that in our lives to say things like that and I am so blessed to have it.

So after careful thought, I went to Dutchess Community College today and declared a Business major.  I start August 30.

When I sat down with what would turn into my "first" admissions counselor of the day, I didn't really know what I was doing, and as luck would have it, she was the type that said "yes" to everything and did most of the talking rather than offer actual advisement.  So I left enrolled in microsoft word 101 and something equally redundant for a generation y-er that had computer literacy integrated into every assignment since 3rd grade.  

As I sat outside waiting for Ian to pick me up, I was able to think about it more and decided to turn around and re-evaluate and maybe re-vamp my current path.  I don't think that it was a coincidence that the guy that turned out to be my "second" admissions counselor of the day was also the non-fat, latte in a personal cup guy at work.  God just works that way.

He proceeded to ask me what my goals were and WHY I was pursuing business.  This caught me by surprise after my last run-in with community college advisement just minutes prior, but I explained and from there we decided TOGETHER the plan of action that makes the most sense for me.  I left happy as a clam, and oh so excited about my future.  And even better, I was able to sign up for on-line courses.  This is a blessing as we are sharing one car, I work across the river, Ian goes to school on this side of the river in the opposite direction and we just didn't need one more destination complicating the matter.

I didn't know why so many doors were not opening for me and why Starbucks seemed to be obtaining permanent residency in my life, but I like where I'm at right now.  I like my job.  I like my husband.  I like my co-workers.  I like my friends.  I like my life.

I don't know God's plan, but I can say that if I would have found a job that I settled for, I would not have been in the position to go for my REAL dreams.  Everyday I find out that God is so much better than I thought He was the day before.