Gravity

Not surprisingly, I've answered the same question several times with several different answers; why are you moving back to Washington? It's a fair question because so many people lovingly saw us off just short of a year ago, likewise so many here have brought us in.They opened their lives to us and invited us in. It's a sudden decision. But one that Ian and I are blessed to feel at peace with.

To answer the question; there is no one, (or five) straight answer. We have logistical reasons for leaving, however those don't carry as much weight in our hearts as the less logical, more heart-wrenching reasons.  I love New York. Pretty much the t-shirts were made for me. I love everything (except the taxes, tolls and the mob) about living in New York. I love the culture, the people, the accents. I heart NY. To sound annoying and cliche, I found the person I want to be living here. I can see growth in myself, growth that I'd like to continue to foster. But something stronger is pulling us right back to where we began.

Family supports and affirms our dreams and stops at nothing to position to launch us into the unknown and pray that we succeed. But they keep us grounded too. We were supported and excitedly launched toward a fun, exciting, mysterious New York life. All the while, life's beginning and end, with so much in between was happening in Washington. A life that felt more like a burden to be blissfully unaware of 3,000 miles away than it did to be a part of. I can feel that gravity grounding me, reminding me that there's a balance in life to love big, to be present.

Everyday, since returning from Christmas vacation, I've been thankful for that westward gravitational pull. Did you know gravity has a latitudinal force? It's strong. But I'll miss my New York friends and family. In a way, it's more difficult to leave here than it was to leave Washington, because we always knew we'd someday make our way back. They've been an amazing example of love and prepared me for doing the same in Washington.

If this blog has taught you (and me) anything, it's probably that there are no guarantees in life. That life changes in a moments notice and for some, that makes planning a challenge or simply just a non-essential. I like having no guarantees, because we've only got today to show love in a big way. Let's not waste it anymore.