I've been wondering lately if there is something wrong with the way that I'm just not a planner. Call me irresponsible, but I like to think it's just the way I often roll with the punches.
Case in point: By the start of 2009, I didn't have a clue where life was headed beyond my little "nursery" of a room in my childhood home. By February, there was talk of culinary school. In April, Ian had a new dog. By May we were visiting NY, by June we were engaged and October of the same year I was a married woman. Come February of 2010, I was moving to New York with my new husband to pursue the culinary arts, sans our lovable family dog.
I could not have planned that out better if I had a giant calendar, some sticky notes, a mutual fund, and a crystal ball. I'm some what spontaneous by nature, and this gripping idea that I need to have a plan for my life is sucking who I am right out of me. I can appreciate the planners in this world. God designed them to be that way. It's just taking me until now to realize fully that I'm not designed to be that way too.
I think I worry about the people around me shaking their heads, wondering when I'm going to 'figure it all out.' Like one day, it's all going to click and I'm going to blog about how in 2 years I plan to have my own shop like I've been saying for years, in 5 years I'll be preggo and in 10 I'll be bare foot, chasing 12 kids around a disheveled gift store, whilst building a dream home with room for 5 more.
Life offers new opportunities on a daily basis. I'm not saying that I sit around and wait for life to happen. But I've come to realize that when I work hard each day to honor God in everything I do, trusting that He has my life planned out better than I ever could, that's when my heart is most at peace. That's when I am not blind to see the blessings already before me.
Praying you find that same peace from Jesus, too. Be it with a calendar or not.
:-) Love it! Life has a way of making us question who we are, but you're so right! God has our lives planned out better than we ever could... so it doesn't matter! I am a planner and that doesn't always help, especially with big life decisions. I think God has us on Life Plan 17.4 or something! Planner or not, it is best to be open to God's leading and just trust that He's in control!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful Post girlie.... It's so true... God orchestrates the events of your life down to the intricate detail... even if you don't plan them. I witnessed this first hand last Sunday when our bus of 25 kids broke down on the side of the road in 96+ degree weather... There were many different things that happened after this that blew me away as to the power of God to actively work in my life. One of the biggest being this:
ReplyDeleteWe are broke down in middle of nowhere Oregon and several people stop, but no one is able to help. Rather, God had not brought who HE wanted yet...
So, we are getting frustrated, but God knows 'all in perfect timing'...
FINALLY someone comes who has the tools to fix our bus, and who is he? A Youth Pastor from Middle of Nowhere Kansas - finding us in middle of nowhere Oregon. However, this little place in Kansas is also where Charlie and Caleb Heath (our camp guest speaker) went to college and Charlie has known this guy since he was born... How weird is that? That our paths should cross so unexpectedly. God had it planned and instead of waiting for his beautiful timing we sat frustrated and confused that our efforts were not working...
Incredible.
SOmetimes we just don't get it that we need to listen to the rhythm that GOd has going instead of our own planning time lines..yes i am planner but when I do I try to listen to what the uderlying theme is.. Kate you are an amazing woman and I am so lucky to have you as a daughter and a perfect wife for Ian!
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